Hey you, what's you dream?"
The thing is that when i started supporting bangtan, i was going through the hardest times in my life, and to be honest, i never thought that they could ever mean this much to me. no matter what happened in my life, I found my escape in Bangtan, and ever since i found them, i've been constantly turning to them for help, when I couldn't talk to anyone, when i felt like i was about to give up, I simply watched them, listened to their songs, their stories, watched them smiling, laughing together and after that, I found myself falling, hard. but the thing is that they were here, to catch me, with their music, with their words, with everything they are, they healed me and continue to heal me everyday.
those seven boys, mean the whole wide world to me, no, so much more than that, they're simply only thing in my life that I'm certain of, they're my home, because the things i feel whenever i'm watching them is absolutely everything you should be feeling at home, love, caring, pampering, affection, i feel every each one of them, i feel their sadness, i feel their happiness, it's like we're whole, all of us, bangtan and us, it feels like it's just us and there's absolutely nothing more beautiful than that, sharing your happiness with others, sharing your stories, sadness to others. the fact that Yoongi was going through depression, the fact he constantly had to worry about his future, when he had nowhere to go, nothing to eat, when Namjoon was sitting in studio for hours, trying to figure out what he has done wrong, when he spent days, weeks in studio creating music, writing every single thing he has ever felt, when Jungkook had to leave his parents, when he was so young and completely alone, when he had no one, when he found his hyungs, when Hoseok spent hours in practice room, practicing his skills, his moves because everyone around him was doubting him, when he was so close to giving up, when Jin gave up on acting and started from the bottom, when he spent days working on his vocals, moves, when jimin felt like everything he has ever done wasn't enough, when he simply felt like he had to have abs in order to be perfct, when people around him calling him fat, when Taehyung was going through his hardest times but he still smiled, when he felt like breaking apart but for his fans, he remained whole, when he wasn't confident about his voice, when he was insecure, when people were accusing him of abusing his own fans, when whole freaking world doubted Bangtan, they didn't give up, they spent years doing something they love with people they care about, the fact that whole world was against them, didn't stop them, they still continued creating music, they continued trying to ease people's pain, they continued being themselves and they smiled. no matter what happened, no matter what they've been going through they remained their smiles and today, when they got their 2nd Daesang, all of them cried, you could feel pain & happiness in namjoon's voice, you could feel how much they've gone through in order to be the Bangtan they are right now and to be with people they are with right now. they taught me how to live, how to be okay again, how to work on insecurities, how much you can achieve by working hard, they're not Artist of the Year for me, they are Artist of the whole damn history for me because they saved me, because their mere existence makes everything better, because they're people who have played the biggest role in my entire life and because they are Bangtan. seven boys, who had absolutely nothing and the only thing they had was each other and us, and who, taught me that it's okay not to be okay, that it's okay to be lost, it's okay to feel down but there's always a way back, no matter how lost you are, there's always a way back.
congratulations bangtan on winning this award, thank you for existing in our lives because without all of you, i've got no idea where i'd be right now. thank you.
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text is written by me, sorry i had to get this out, i love you all.
Etherealtae.