Yes I believe you I have no doubt for that but the problem is it's me I can't tell you directly because I don't want to hurt you but honestly I still love my ex-husband the father of my kids although I love you too I'm so confused I don't know how to say it to you in a good way
Before I arrived here in japan my elder son talked to me seriously and his father he asked me for one chance for the sake of our children he work it out just to be a one and a happy family
My son don't like me to a have another boyfriend they can't accept it only his father I hope you understand it hard for me to decide
I'm sorry I can't say it in japanese words because it difficult pls. Try to understand my English