There is a video out there of a very young A-Chan in her school dorm room making a video blog. In it, she is clearly very saddened by something and she is crying deeply. Obviously, since I am personally ignorant to the Japanese language (regrettably so), I have no idea what she is saying or why she is so very distraught. However, I found myself crying uncontrollably at her anguish. I am a grown man, but the tears she shed were so moving, so real. I totally understand what you are saying. Fudge. (I wish to hell I could find that video again, yet as much as I have tried, I have yet to find it. It is something I will always cherish...everyone needs a good cry now and then)